“I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be.” Robert Munsch
Tonight, I arrived home from work pretty exhausted. I had a whole morning full of hearings and an afternoon spent preparing a position paper. There was just so much more that needed to be done. Work does get overwhelming sometimes. I have another round of hearings tomorrow and I am weary just thinking about it.
I get home and go straight to baby Ethan’s room. He looks so peaceful in his sleep, like he’s resting on clouds and walking on rainbows. I gaze at him and catch him smiling just as if he’s seeing fluffy dogs and adorable cats – seeing the kind of things beautiful dreams are made of. The weariness is lifted off my shoulders. I am reminded of how rich and wonderful the world is. Indeed, how wonderful or miserable your life is depends on your perspective.
I realize how shallow I was to complain about work. I am blessed to have a job where I am paid to help people. I have a little boy who looks at me like I am the world to him. I have a hubby who keeps encouraging me to go biking/swimming and running with him (because it just is so much fun to do all these strenuous activities…(hehe). In other words, I am loved…
I say a quick word of thanks to the Lord for the reminder. I have so many concerns but my God so much bigger. I cast all my cares upon Him. Tonight, I will sleep well. He will take care of me and of my problems just as He has done my entire life. I have nothing to fear.
My baby is now about 22 weeks old. He is a sweet little thing…He has preferences now. His favorite toy is Tiger, an orange (yes, you guessed it!) tiger.. with a rattle on his right hand and a ball on his left. Tiger never fails to get him to blabber. I imagine Ethan confiding in Tiger and telling him how his day went. He loves to play with fingers. He spends minutes observing my fingers when I offer them to him to play with. He loves to jump on my lap and I am most happy when my silly antics are rewarded by a smile or a giggle from him.
I wish I could spend my entire with him but I have a career and for mothers like me, it isn’t as easy. Still, I am luckier than most. I am blessed with the gift of sleep. I can sleep immediately, anywhere and anytime. So I co-sleep with my baby and wake up when he wakes. It’s no big deal for me as like him, I fall asleep the moment my head rests on the bed. I like to gaze at him when I sleep. I am filled with wonder at this little angel that lived in my tummy for nine months and is now a breathing, living being beside me.
I thank the Lord for making me a mom. Life has changed for hubby and me. We haven’t travelled in a long time, the last one being when we visited Prambanan and Borobudur when I was about two months pregnant but there is nothing like this adventure with Ethan. I look forward to the day when we can take him on one of our backpacking trips. =) Already, we are training him to get used to all kinds of environment, to sleep wherever he may be and in whatever position. 😉
Indeed, my heard is full. And yet my heart is not at peace. Someone close to me is going through something and we have to be strong for her. I am thankful that it’s early yet and that the Lord is taking care of her. I pray for her healing and I pray for our family that we may help each other and be there for each other and for her especially. “Life, oh life, oh life..” I know though that everything happens for a reason. I know that the Lord sees us and knows what is in our hearts. The beauty of life lies in its imperfections, in the unexpected changes, in the trials that come our way. I thank you Lord for your blessings. God bless us all always.
I hear the gurgling sounds of my little one beside me and I heave a sigh of relief. He is well. All is well with the world.
I was introduced to the joys of motherhood 23 days ago and I am still reveling in it all. I catch myself gazing at my son taking in this miracle of life..TBC…
It’s August already, in three months, our little boy will be out in the world. I am filled with excitement, curiosity, happiness and a little apprehension. I pray that the Lord will continue to protect us..that He will keep our baby healthy and normal and beautiful on the inside and out. This early, I intercede to the Lord to give him a wonderful life. Each night, hubby and I pray for the grace to be ready for parenthood, that we may be guided by His hand in our rearing him. We know it won’t be easy, nothing that is ever worth anything is. But with the Lord’s guidance and with what we have learned from our own loving parents, we will be good parents to a wonderful little boy.
Like any mother to be, my fears come and go. Every time a horrible scenario crosses my mind, I say a quick prayer to the Lord and ask Him for His grace.
Taking a break from the pleading I have been working on, I’ve been repinning lots of baby photo ideas onto my pinterest account. I’ve been viewing a lot of DIY stuff that I hope to do when our house is finished. I wonder what kind of mom I will be. Once again, I am overwhelmed by the blessing of this gift. Thank You Lord for your many blessings. Amen.