This month marks the 2nd year anniversary of cancer’s entry into our immediate family. My mom has been declared cancer free since, but the fear remains. I have in the recent months developed a fear for lab tests. I am scared that the big C will touch more lives in our family. It is a black thought that I constantly and intentionally keep at bay.
My dad is undergoing an MRI now. Again, we wait with bated breath for the results. I think positive, surrender all my fears to my friend above, our great healer. I pray for healing.
My dearest Lord, please bless our family with good health. Bless us that we may live long and prosper. I surrender our lives, our future, to You. Amen.
My little boy will be turning 5 months old next week. He can now stick his tongue out at will. He makes emphatic noises when he feels hot or wants a change in position. He’s a little human being, with likes and dislikes. I love how his eyes seem to reflect his mischievousness when he smiles. I love everything about him from the tips of his toes to the hair on his head. Everyday, I make a quick glance above to say: “thank you Lord.”
Everyday too since our family found out some alarming news, I bring Ethan’s hand together and with him pray: “Lord, please bless my lola. Heal her. Let everything be fine with her Lord.” The tears that threaten to pour out are kept within the rim of my eyes. I refuse to even consider it. Until we’re certain, we’re keeping our trust in our friend up there. I know the Lord is taking care of mommy and that she’ll be fine.
My mother-in-law shared this prayer with me to give to my mom. It goes like this:
“Why do you get confused and hectic by the problems of life? Leave all your things in my care and everything will go better. When you let yourself go to me all will be solved peacefully as per my plans. Do not despair; do not make me a desperate prayer as if you want to order me to fulfill you wishes. Close the eyes of your soul and tell me peacefully JESUS I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU.
Avoid the worries and anguish and the thoughts of what might happen later. Do not spoil my plans waiting to impose your ideas on me. Let me be God and let me act with liberty. Rest in my and leave your future in my hands. Tell me frequently JESUS I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU. What hurt me most are your reasoning and your own ideas and wanting to solve things your way. When you tell me: JESUS I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU, do not be like the patient who asks the doctor to cure him, but he suggests the way to do it. Let me take you in my divine arms; do not be afraid, I LOVE YOU.
If you believe that things get worse or get complicated in spite of your prayer, keep on trusting. Close the eyes of your soul and trust. Continue telling me at all times: JESUS I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU. I need free hands to act. Do not tie me up with your useless worries. That is what Satan wants, to anguish you, to take the Peace away from you. Trust only in ME, let yourself go to me. So do not worry. Give ME all your worries and sleep peacefully. Always tell me. JESUS I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU and you will see big miracles. I promise you by my love.”
Thank you Lord for a beautiful and rich life. Amen.
“All things will work out for the good.” That is the Lord’s promise, one I hold dear to my heart. No matter what our circumstance, things will work for the good. Thank you for an awesome life Lord. Amen.
“You say grace before meals. All right. But I say grace before the concert and the opera, and grace before the play and pantomime, and grace before I open a book, and grace before sketching, painting, swimming, fencing, boxing, walking, playing, dancing and grace before I dip the pen in the ink.” – G. K. Chesterton
Today, I seek the grace to deal with all the little situations in life. I seek the grace and humility to learn from every experience, to never think that there’s nothing more to learn. I pray for a curious mind, to unlearn all my preconceived notions and be more open to a life of endless learning. I pray for consistency, the discipline to NOT procrastinate. I pray for perseverance, for courage, for the motivation to finish what I’ve begun.
Today, I also give You thanks. Thank you Lord for a beautiful life. Thank you for the love of my husband, my family and friends. Thank you for blessing me with so much joy. Today, I ask for the healing of my heart, bless me Lord that I may let go of my resentments, bless me that I may see the world in Your eyes. Amen.